CALM: the story
First blog post here. Sorry about the big fucking picture, still working on the whole website thing and I cannot figure out how to make it smaller. Just gives you more time to gaze at the piece before you get to this fabulous piece of writing to go along with it.
My idea for making this blog struck me as a way to further embed my personality into the pieces without having to make a TikTok or create additional video content (i realized I did not have the patience or skill to do that efficiently). These will be casual and chill, just like me. I have never been told I’m a good writer or ever turned in a paper with no grammatical or spelling errors but luckily that’s just part of being me and will for sure be part of these writings. They will each be a real-time verbal expression and recap of one piece and what makes it special to me. But let me just start out by saying, as much as my therapist would like each section to have a very specific meaning from deep in my soul and be based on my heart’s reflection of past traumas… a lot of it is random and in the moment ideas just kinda happen.
So please…sit back and enjoy
CALM: the story
this (the art) required a lot of growth to make and in the moment i did not love it as much as I do now. it came together after a long hiatus of no making. After many low days and sad nights i suddenly realized it wasnt that i was happy all the time again or that I felt like myself, but it was that I was calm. I was not having huge fluctuations in moods every day; big spikes of anger then huge endorphin rushes. I was calm and consistent.
When I made this piece I thought it was fine and I liked my color choices but it was different than the pieces I’d made before my hiatus. it was simplier, clear, one might say calmer. Its quiet, kinda just minding its own business, but little did it know it would send me into a period of art frenzy. Nothing calm and consistent about it. I didn’t want it to be calm and consistent either. I started pumping out art like it was nobody’s business. I convinced myself to push back doing my hw just to finish pieces, and the piece would look like shit (maybe ill make a post all my shit pieces). But i wouldnt care because i had created something that had never existed before. No one had ever seen this exact thing. I had created something I owned, I controlled, and was mine to do with what I please. And that felt great! Not that i have any backing to give advice but i would say the pride and pleasure that comes with making something new and unique and being able to call it yours, is out of this world and i encourage everyone to go do something that allows you to feel that enlightenment.
I hope you enjoyed this little tid bit into the piece
for sure more to come.
KS
